see i feel like this is such a good example of their relationship tho and shows how complex and nuanced it is ;-;
like theres a lot of things going on in here but some of the main parts are
gon wanting to ignore killuas injuries and how that in a way is a show of his childish selfishness. i think this gets brought up the most w this part
but also how gon flat out just takes killuas word for it. killua wants to continue and so does gon and thats literally all the two need. killua would do the same if the situation is reversed!! they trust each other in that way
but also how much killua loves being relied on by gon and how he really really desperately wants gon to love and trust in him. gon readily supplies this, which isnt a negative thing, but it ends up causing a LOT of trouble in chimera ant arc OBVIOUSLY that killua is willing to go above and beyond for gon
also sidenote i think it also shows how killua purposely hides the extra work he does to not worry gon but that gon already sees and acknowledges it!!
was looking thru my old art to make none of it was marked sensitive, and like…
man. i remember for some reason i wasn’t a big fan of blue eyed interps of az so i always drew him as brown eyed at the start, and then more brown-red because I think red eyes are most likely all things considered. I really like interps with one orange and one blue eye too though, like people have for asgore sometimes as well
Children in
abusive families aren’t accepted nor acknowledged as the valuable member of the
family. They’re being told they’re freeloaders, someone allowed to live in the
house who should be grateful they get to sleep there. They’re considered a
financial burden, and an emotional one, if they ever need attention or care.
They’re told to compare themselves to children who aren’t so lucky and are
starvng on the street, or being abused much worse my caretakers. They’re forced
to count their blessings, as if each and every one of them isn’t used against
them. They’re only being presented as the children to guests and outsiders, who
parents are trying to impress or play normal family game in front of. They’re
being used by parents to feel good about themselves, and then discarded as if
they’re worthless.
In healthy
families no child is considered a burden, or less valuable than any other
person in the family, it’s the opposite, the parents are able to acknowledge
that as the youngest and most vulnerable member, the child should get most
attention, care and help growing up and forming into an individual. In healthy
families there’s no question of letting the child be hungry if there’s food,
threatening them of losing place to sleep if they are able to provide a bed.
There’s no comparing the child to those who were less lucky, it’s parents who
question if they could do anything better, make the life of their child better.
Child doesn’t have to worry about finances, or have anything they have or do used
against them, they know whatever belongs to parents, is theirs as well, and
they know if something goes wrong, parents are going to have their back.
Healthy families give children feeling of safety, stability, value, confidence,
support, and community. They’re a pillar of strength for the child. Child doesn’t have to fulfill certain conditions to deserve it, or work tirelessly to deserve to be a part of the family. There’s no
game of pretense in front of outsiders, they’re not only a child of these
people in certain conditions or when the parents find it convenient, they’re
treated well at all times.
essay topic: oofuri, the hedgehog’s dilemma and how this is reflected in both characters.
both abe and mihashi have the sentiment of ‘i’m the one who everything REALLY relies on so i can’t fuck up’. mihashi mostly turns this inward, it’s an expression of his extremely low self esteem. if something bad happens, if the game is lost, somehow it’s because of something i did. sometime arrogance even gets assumed of him in narrative because of this notion, but it’s… it’s this deep feeling of ‘really somehow i could’ve fixed it, and if anyone’s flawed it has to be me, because i am inherently the MOST flawed’
with abe, it’s because he burdens himself. he sets himself up this way because 1. he feels he needs more control after previously viewing himself as powerless but 2. he puts burden after burden on his own shoulders. feel like few people talk about how much abe is essentially cornering himself with his own high standards and control of his scenario. if you’re leading with such a vice grip (the way abe is leading mihashi) well, you don’t rely on anyone
‘i thought it was good luck i had been paired with him’ abe: [proceeds to be fucked up about it and deal with the ramifications of it for the rest of the story]
tbqh im a lil defensive of abe and it’s not because he doesn’t fuck up. the whole story is about abe fucking up.
but so many people act like abe’s like.. this dick for no reason.
he really doesn’t get it. he’s really bad at interfacing with people because he’s so focused on his own thing, and his previous experiences haven’t actually done a good thing in the way of making him better at empathy or interfacing with people when from the get go he seems really inherently to lack the knack. abe’s someone who is very… bossy and usually unemotive. he focuses on what you can Do. he doesn’t share feelings with people (except mihashi apparently). he doesn’t hesitate. he’s blunt. he doesn’t Understand people who feel other ways even tho he has his moments of insight it’s depicted as this… constant struggle. this is the kid who let his previous pitcher bean him with baseballs so he could keep being his catcher. relating to people who feel/show weakness so visibly jams against his own experiences so hard and it takes him a lot of effort to try to get where they’re coming from.
i dont know. abe and mihashi kind of represent a lot of me, including a time in highschool when i went from someone who was more like abe (completely unaware of my impact) to someone like mihashi (intensely focused on every little thing i said because of how it could be read into)
they remind me of my pre and post-social ostracization by all my peers selves so both of them have a special place in my heart.
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