Tag: i talk

tbqh im a lil defensive of abe and it’s not because he doesn’t fuck up. the whole story is about abe fucking up.

but so many people act like abe’s like.. this dick for no reason.

he really doesn’t get it. he’s really bad at interfacing with people because he’s so focused on his own thing, and his previous experiences haven’t actually done a good thing in the way of making him better at empathy or interfacing with people when from the get go he seems really inherently to lack the knack. abe’s someone who is very… bossy and usually unemotive. he focuses on what you can Do. he doesn’t share feelings with people (except mihashi apparently). he doesn’t hesitate. he’s blunt. he doesn’t Understand people who feel other ways even tho he has his moments of insight it’s depicted as this… constant struggle. this is the kid who let his previous pitcher bean him with baseballs so he could keep being his catcher. relating to people who feel/show weakness so visibly jams against his own experiences so hard and it takes him a lot of effort to try to get where they’re coming from.

i dont know. abe and mihashi kind of represent a lot of me, including a time in highschool when i went from someone who was more like abe (completely unaware of my impact) to someone like mihashi (intensely focused on every little thing i said because of how it could be read into)

they remind me of my pre and post-social ostracization by all my peers selves so both of them have a special place in my heart.

this is a post where i just meditate on codependent relationships in fiction i like, esp about abe. it’s got too many references to mean much i just want to talk about my abe feelings…

i saw someone compare abe to asriel back when ut was first released and it made me laugh but it also stabbed me in the heart.

that being said, hm, it’s interesting. because like a lisa / chara / gon type he exerts more control in the relationship. he’s the one ‘who wants to be relied on’, and in fact… NEEDS to be relied on. but i’d be hesitant to have him fill that role of those other characters. so why is he more of an asriel type to me…?

well. mihashi is no chara, or lisa. or even gon. foundationally, he looks for guidance. much like asriel. needs to be needed, needs to rely on someone, WANTS to rely on someone, wants the other person to know he is relying on them.

I’d say the reason abe is more asriel/killua/buzzo-like in his codependence is just his sheer amount of reliance on mihashi as a foundation for him. ‘supposed to be their light’ and that’s abe’s goal too. even if he gets frustrated (a lot of the time because he doesn’t UNDERSTAND) he wants to raise mihashi up. even though he doesn’t express it enough, he actually has a lot of confidence in mihashi’s abilities and just thinks mihashi’s skill is a given. although he’s a little aware of it, he’s not quite aware of the depths of mihashi’s self flagellation and he’s also just in the beginning process of gathering the tools to be able to help. i think it’s because well. he Wants to Be of Use to mihashi.

luckily for abe, mihashi wants to be Of Use to him as well. reciprocal! unfortunately. mihashi’s thoughts regarding being of use are super negative and he attributes everything good to abe.

interestingly, even though mihashi is very concerned about abe’s advice and living up to abe’s expectations and abe in general, you don’t get the sense that mihashi is the one who is as obsessed or depends on abe as much. the truth is, abe is the one who is always thinking of mihashi (and uh, baseball. which ties back into the mihashi thing).

mihashi has friends, mihashi has more going on. he’s building up multiple relationships. in general he’s basking in the newfound love of a team who he thinks he can truly be a part of. 

abe… what’s he doing. well. probably thinking of either baseball or mihashi. in fact he’s the one who’s existence rotates on mihashi’s although he keeps track of mihashi for a semblance of control. ultimately, he’s the one who’s focused on mihashi as his core though.

that’s not even getting into their later development.

fuck im laughing bc there’s so many moments where mihashi thinks something really fucked up to himself and like… look. abe and mihashi have communication issues. big ones. abe really hasn’t even cracked the full fucked upness of mihashi’s thought processes, esp early on

btw ive now seen ‘bakugou wouldn’t treat just anyone like this’ and ‘bakugou would treat anyone like this’ both used as reasons his relationship with midoriya isn’t abusive